well...yesterday i wanted to update..but halfway through, ivy asked me to go and look at helena's blog and that blog freaking hanged!!!and in the end all my internet explorer windows all closed..and MY ENTRY!!!!!!NoOOoOOoOO~~ haiz..just when i was gng to complete the entry which took me 2 over hours..bleah..sian..so guess i'll just update again..but since it consist of 2 days it will be quite a loooooooong entry...

               shall start with yesterday ba..yesterday was such a bad day for me..so many freaking bad things happened..oh well got back my amaths and emaths paper..barely passed my emaths..50/100..another marking error and i can say bye bye to my pass le..sian..amaths no need to say obviously is another fail..and after that got back social studies..when mrs bala called me out she say 'i think you do quite well..youre stronger in ur SBQ right?i think you need to work harder on your SBQ' and i was like 'wa..i do quite well ar?how much sia..' den in the end SBQ 16/25 SEQ 13/25..LIKE THAT CALL GOOD AR??kns..make me happy for nothing nia..zZzzz..den got back physics paper..great...another fail..haiz..

               things started to look abit better after physics lesson ba..abit only..not alot..got back our geog..i got 64/100 for my paper 2 and 30/40 for my paper 1..so overall is 67/100??yea..felicia was the top..69..which means im 2nd =D ok thats the only good thing for the day ba..but wasnt too happy with my geog marks anyway..cus i made alot of stupid mistakes..Zzzz..got back english too..17/25 and 15/25..so total is 32/50..yea still okok ba...and during the last period mrs bala came in to talk about the community night..ok what mdm oen said that morning was total BULLSHIT..all the money that you get will NOT go to the school??the school is NOT beneficial for the community night??WHAT A LOAD OF CRAP..one ticket is $30..and the money is not going to the school?then where?to the blue cross which is situated beside our school??try to convince me...

               after that something happened..oh man..dun wanna talk about it..just take care ok??=) after lunch break was chinese lesson..got back paper 2..sian..it was quite badly done..45.5/70...sian..my ying yong wen only got 14/20..listening compre 18/20..and to think i thought i could get full marks..damn.. and chi oral was the best ba..35/40..i think me ivy n titus highest??haha..not very sure..but it means i have to get quite high of rny compo to secure an A1..haha..

               after lesson went to dabao my lunch and went home..didnt really feel like going home..because i was afraid to tell my mum about my results..she'll be so damn disappointed..haiz..almost walked towards the science block to where the class 4B used to be..but halfway i stopped..they're no longer there anymore..haiz..i missed the times whenever i scored badly for my exams i'll just rant to them and they will just crap crap and make me laugh..how i missed complaining to andy and he'll just say 'aiya..nvm one lar..' and he'll be doing silly stuffs..just to make my smile..how i miss standing at the corridor watching them play soccer..everytime i feel sad i'll just go over and there they'll be..playing soccer..and i dont know why but just watching them play makes me forget about stressful things for a while..but yesterday..when i looked over all i see is just an empty field..an empty field which holds so much memories...guess i got to move on...

               at night as usual went online and stuffs..got a shock..but well..have to face it bravely..=) haha..and today's friday...haha..glad i didnt reach school at 7am again..haha..cant imagine the stupid blunder i made last week..haha..and 1st 2 period was english..got back our papers..and tried to get some marks for my points..in the end ruicheng got miss wong to come to our class and guess what?the moment she came in she scold and scold..wtf..some durian indeed..seems that i wasnt convinced at all..recess went to makan with peishi..hehe..and the rest of the day was normal..nothing much..went for choir phototaking at 1.30..oh well thats the last choir photo i gotta take together with my beloved choir le ba..well for the informal shot it wasnt fun at all..without andy and guys everyone was like so calm and there wasnt much fun in it...miseed those days where we will go all bersek when we took informal photo..and the guys will be piling on top of one another trying to crush the person below to death..haha..

               after phototaking went to makan with siewming..haha..ok or should i say xiu min?wahahaha..and halfway through mum called and i got a shock..kns..but in the end everything turned out to be ok..thank god if not i'll be like..i dont know..but wo jia shou bu liao anymore ci ji le..haha..and went to watch X-factor..haha..and went home...funny sia..was tired so i went to take a nap..and my sis woke me up at 7.40..and i was like 'huh??time to go sch le ar??' and my sis was like 'diao lar u..now at night leh...' haha..so dumb..and she said that i sleep talk..-.- it went like this:

me: eh..mei mei..
my sis: yes?
me: does this make an M?? (did a gesture of writing the letter M using my index finger)
my sis: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

               ok how nice was that..and i dont even realise that im sleep talking..since i dont remember dreaming at all...read too much da vinci code le..haha..and went online at night lor..usual stuffs..and suddenly i received a phone call from perry..and the moment i picked up someone said i owe them money and blah blah blah..all the crap..in the end yuan lai they are together..haha..act wad finance company only..haha..but well..i dont really mind though..at least that made me laughed..haha..although waste money lar..since i dont have free incoming calls..=X haha..but nvm..hehe..glad to hear their voices once again..haha...

               and here i am blogging now..hmm..tmr's his birthday..wondering if i should sms and wish him happy birthday??i dont know..i lied that i deleted his number away..but i didnt..couldnt bring myself to...haiz..dilemia..someone tell me what should i do??im afraid..that he would scold me again...arhg!!!nvm..guess i'll just sign off...

Mousukoshi..Mousukoshi ( A Little More..A Little More..)

When i noticed i was thinking about you,
I felt very embarrassed
And i really hate that feeling
Thats because i was afraid to convey my feelings

Even though i suppress it in my head,
I cant do anything about my heart
I dont let you notice it when we meet
So it can be normal for how i plan to talk to you

Trying to act so composed it has started to hurt
I will put away lying to you, but...

A little more, just a little more
If i can get closer to your heart
A little more, just a little more
So that this moment wont end

Please God, give me some courage

When im alone with my bad crazy thoughts,
I worry about what you think of me
Im sorry that i stepped forward just to try to let you know

Im not myself, I dont like the fog around my heart
Depending on someone else makes me run away, but...

A little more, just a little more
If i can get beside you
A little more, just a little more
Night does not continue when dawn comes
So please wipe away your tears when youre feeling lonely

The glowing moon floats out into the heavens
Im neither stronger nor more confident
Look at me smiling..ok?

well i guess i should accept the fact ba..but im always here for you..if you realised it...=)

                    haha..yesterday was a fun day..LOL..woke up at 9 in the morning to get myself prepared so that i would go to the library and revise for my geography paper 1..haha..but in the end i went off to macdonalds to have my breakfast instead..haha..after finishing my breakfast THEN i proceeded to the library..well i must say although its sunday there are still quite a lot of people going to the library..i wonder why..haha.i mean cmon its sunday!!go out and play!!so that people like us can get to own the whole library!!wahahahahaha..

                     after studying until 1pm i decided to stop because there's really too much questions to do..so i went back to jp and played arcade..-.- so much for studying in the library..haha..at around 3 i went home and came online..and jenmey called and ask me to the library..haha..so i went back..-.- haha..well because i was thinking that since at night my family is going to jp's pizza hut for dinner to celebrate my mum's birthday..haha..so off i went and met jen at the library..while we were trying to find a seat, we saw zf sitting down there alone doing his art..so we decided to go over and talk to him..and since we cant find a seat, we might as well share the same table as him..clever? =X im just kidding...im nice..=D

                        haha..seriously i dont know why but me+jenmey = study NOT haha..both of us just cant seem to study together..because we will just end up talking about endless stuffs and crapping and we will end up laughing as the time goes by and before we know it a few hours have passed and OUR REVISION IS STILL NOT DONE!!haha..but for yesterday i guess its ok because i did managed to complete some of my work..wahahahaha..but of cause talking stood more percentage than working..thats for sure..what can u expect when jen and ys are together??haha..after studying we decided to stop by at the arcade..haha..went to the photo copying shop 1st because zf needed to photocopy something for his art..but sad that all are unable to print..-.- haha..so..ARCADE TIME!!!wahahaha..

                         reaching the arcade i asked jenmey to accompany me to play para para but she dun wan!!!T.T haha..so we went to play percussion freak instead..haha..long time nvr play le..malu myself only..haha..or rather thats the 2nd time ive played??haha..actually before that i wanted to team up with zf go play the bball game..haha..but when we reach we saw this guy over there..he's damn pro la..hand like machine gun like that keep shooting and shooting and the bball just went in and the score was like keep increasing..haha..for the 1st stage he can get like 90points??PRO haha..and his high score was 629..the 2nd time he played was 628..sad..one more point nia!!haha..wonder if his hand ever got tired..LOL...

                          so we decided to play daytona instead..haha..but too many people le..sumore all look so pro..i play an automatic!!T.T haha..so me and jen went to play DDR..haha..the 1st game was like damn funny la..because jenmey wanted to play the trick, so she asked me to play the normal standard mode so that if she fail i will still pass..so the game still can continue so wont waste money..haha..but she set wrong..so i ended up playing the trick and she played the even more difficult one..haha..and its like within 30 sec we failed?LOL..and we were laughing like mad..haha..so try again!!haha..after that was ok le..but for the last song jenmey wanted me to play the trick too..and i was like 'dun wan lar!!!' and she help me change..i change back..she change again, i change back again..den she change and immediately pressed start..-.- so i ended up playing the same thing as her..and the song was like so weird..start very very very slow...den suddenly SPEED UP..den slowwwwww again..and SPEED UP again!!!haha..

                             after that me and zf went to play the bball game..haha..but sad lar...didnt managed to get into the 3rd round..T.T haha..i think my fault sia..haha..cus i like keep hitting his ball away from the net..=X haha..paiseh ah!!haha..after that we went to play house of dead 4..its 4 right??cant rmb..haha..and thats the 1st time i played that game..oh man the game is like so blood curling can..the screen is so big..and as u play suddenly a zombie pops up IN FRONT OF YOU!!haha..and i dont know how to reload and jenmey was like 'SHAKE SHAKE!!!' haha..and zf was like the pro one shooting all the way..and im like screaming all the way??haha..and jenmey said that when she turned back 4 guys were like laughing at us..T.T so malu..haha..and after that game left money for one last game so jen and zf go play street fighter..haha..and guys..NEVER EVER PLAY STREET FIGHTER WITH JENMEY!! she CLAIMS that she's a noob but she freaking thrashed zf for like 2 rounds??and zf died and she PROCEEDED to play against the computer!!!SOME NOOB EHS?haha...

                                so after arcade we went down to toys r us!!!hehe..so fun..lol..went there and look at all sorts of toys and we were like reminising our childhood days..haha..its kind of nice to think back then to see how innocent we were..haha..getting all happy when the teacher awards us with a sticker or a chop which says 'excellent!' haha..and my sister called and i went off to meet them outside jp le..and jen and zf went home..haha..was supposed to go jp and eat pizza hut..but in the end my dad decided to go lot 1 instead..and when we reach there were like 8 families on the waiting list??!! so in the end we ate KFC..haha..and went to play more arcade!!and went home..lol..

                                   reaching home was like doing some last minute studying of geog with jenmey...haha..and slept around 2??and woke up at 5..haha..and in the end i slept for geog paper 1 sia..-.- dont think i want to give any comments about the paper ba..i have nothing to say..after that had our NE quiz..haha..answer question and build things..haha..in the end i got a senior builder..haha..all the chim chim questions i also dun understand..there was this question which shows you 3 different pictures of different temples, and they ask you to match according to their purposes. one of it was 'gathering place for the teochews?' or something like that..cant rmb..but how am i supposed to know la..haha..so i just anyhow tikam and waste question and time lor..haha..after NE quiz we went back to our class to take back our chem results. I would prefer not to talk about my results..because its too badly done..kind of expected the results though, but the sudden shock and the sadness is kind of unexpected i guess. too long never fail chem so i guess now the shock is kinda big ba...haiz..

                                      anyway tmr is chinese paper 3...haha..well thinking about it just simply reminds me of the fun time i had last year, where the night before perry guoxi zhiyu and a few other ppl will be down there crapping say 'eh!!paper 3 leh!!why arent you studying??its soooo impt u know!!' haha..oh man i miss them soooo much!!!haha..cant wait for the day where i'll get to meet them again..haha..wonder when's that day going to me...lol...guess i'll stop here..jenmey is waiting for me to update..haha..ok jenmey enjoy!!wahahahaha..take care!!=D

  whenever i see you smile, i am able to forget all the unhappy things for a while..=)

                        wOohOo..finally today is thurdays day!!which means that the major papers are all over!!haha..wads left now is just geog ppr 1 n chi ppr 3!!haha..but well..today's physics was freaking screwed..dont talk about it le..haha..well for this past few weeks all my life is just go home..slack..sleep..wake up..eat..study..sleep.. take paper..go home..slack..sleep..and so on...haha..but now there are so many things which i want to do that i dont know where to start..haha..so i guess i'll just come in and blog abit ba..haha...

                        1st thing is to clear all the things which i have been putting off doing..like ANIME!!wahahahahaha..oh maybe get some money to buy I Not Stupid Too vcd ba..haha..wanna buy and keep it..the song rocks la..any idea where can i get the full version of the song?haha..any news please tell me!!haha..and hmm..Mai's birthday is reaching soon..or rather its this sunday..14/5 haha..just one day before my mum's birthday..lol..still have no idea what i want to buy for her..but well..the present is sure to be a belated one since it takes around 1 week for the mail to reach japan ba..haha..miss her soooo much..wonder how is the family doing now..how i wish i have their number..and i would call them and directly talk to them..even if i have to pay alot of money..beats having risk getting your mail lost halfway through the jouney of sending it to japan..haiz..

                         its spring over there now..Haru wa..LOL..sakuras are sooo nice..but have not had the chance to see it yet..haha..one day i shall go japan and look at the sakura and during winter look at the beautiful white snow falling down from the sky..oh man!!that would be so beautiful..wahahahahaha..speaking of birthdays i havent bought ivy's present yet..LOL..but hers somehow or other i would be able to settle since im letting her choose and i be the one paying for the present..=X LUCKY U IVY!!thats the 1st time ive ever allowed anyone to do that ok!!you must be feeling so honoured now right??haha..there's so much movie to watch nowadays..with da vinci code as the top piority..but oh man!!its NC16!!and im still freaking 15??haha..but im intending to sneak inside..wahahahaha..everyone wish me good luck kaes??hehe..X-men 3 is coming out too!!haha..i wanna go watch..anyone interested??wanna jio??haha..

                          well..suddenly there isnt any need to study that i suddenly felt so weird..lol..not that im complaining though..haha..hmm..maybe its time for me to start my work of art again..haha..found some really gerat pictures that i really wanted to draw..haha..but sian sia..i got limited skills..really hope that one day i can really create my original piece of art..LOL...but i still love drawing anime..haha..but its damn hard to draw..haha..now ive got the time so hehe..slowly draw ba..haha..anyway mother's day is approaching!!haha..everyone have you thought of what to get for your mums?haha..if no money on that day just give her a big hug and tell her 'I Love You Mum..' and im sure she'll be more that elated!!haha..

                            ok i think ive run out of things to say too..lol..just wanna go off and Chionggggggggggg anime!!!wahahahahaha..and clear all the things that ive been putting off to ba..haha..and for those who's mid year have yet to end..JIA YOU!!haha..the torture is going to end soon!!after that its all playtime!!haha..gambatte ne!! =)

                all of a sudden u just dont seem to lol or haha anymore...=(